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267 of 314 people found the following review helpful. Save your money.By Barbara S.Save your money. I stopped reading when she wrote that doing her household chores as a child was the same as “the institution of chattel slavery in America” making her an indentured servant and this caused her to endure the same experience as black slaves. I stpped reading so I don't know is she ever addressed her stories about being discriminated against that were proven false...19 of 21 people found the following review helpful. In black and whiteBy E. A. SolinasOne of the biggest problems with judging a book like "In Full Color" fairly is that when reading an autobiography; you're effectively taking the author's words as truth. But when the author has been caught egregiously lying multiple times? It gets complicated.And this is one of the biggest problems with "In Full Color: Finding My Place in a Black and White World;" the autobiography of the infamous Rachel Dolezal; a woman who was found to have lied about many aspects of her life -- including her ethnicity; since she had masqueraded for years as a black woman. While technically well-written; the book contains so many fantastical; bizarrely racist and condescending attitudes that it's nearly impossible not to get angry.Dolezal was born to a pair of farmers in Montana; where she claims she was discriminated against since birth as a "cursed" child with darker skin and hair (by which she means slightly reddened). According to her; her parents were violent religious fanatics who just needed mustaches to twirl; and she escaped this life by fantasizing about being black (with National Geographic magazines as her guide. Not kidding). Then her parents adopted four black children (according to her; purely for tax reasons); and left her to care for them.Her fixation on African-American culture only increased as she went to college and made well-received artwork; she also became enmeshed in a doomed marriage and subsequent divorce that left her alienated from her family and friends. Once free; she began styling her hair and skin in order to seem more like a light-skinned black woman; and made a name for herself as an activist -- until it was revealed that she was not actually black; and the house of cards came crashing down.It becomes obvious early in "In Full Color" that a lot of this story is not based in reality -- as a child; Dolezal tells us; she fantasized about being a weather-controlling magical girl in Africa. No; I'm not kidding. She fantasized about being Storm; because she saw black people as a strangely mythical race like elves.And that vein of magical thinking seems to run through the whole book; constructing a world where all white people are wealthy and perpetually racist; and all black people are just OVERJOYED to be in her presence; and eagerly accept and defend her as being "more black" than some of them.The only exception is her abusive; racist ex-husband and a rapist customer. In her eyes; the black people who accept and adore her are "good;" and the ones who don't are "bad" and "self-loathing." And anyone she feels has done her wrong is the evilest of all -- her parents and ex-husband are so uniformly vile that Skeletor would have trouble being nastier. This is made even worse because Dolezal doesn't have the slightest hint of awareness that a temp job or farm chores are not comparable to slavery; nor does she realize how contradictory her beliefs are.Technically; the book is written fairly well; although she often halts her narrative to pompously lecture the readers on African-American history or issues. But as it winds on; it becomes increasingly uncomfortable as Dolezal becomes more painfully "white-saviory;" and unwittingly airs out a lot of very problematic issues. For instance; she often voices distaste for white people; Christianity (especially pro-life ones); and black people who don't conform to how SHE thinks black people should act; feel and think.That last one is a huge sticking point. Dolezal seems to base her perception of African-Americans not on the reality; but the fetishized fantasy that she has concocted in her head. For instance; she seems to believe there is a global; uniform "Black" culture that incorporates all black people in all cultures and locations; rather than the reality that they are as culturally varied as any other ethnic group. And she seems to have decided that she is the one who determines what "blackness" means -- she condescendingly talks about some biracial girls "not knowing they're Black" or black people who are "self-hating" because they don't express it in the way she believes is right.And so "In Full Color" becomes a wildly uncomfortable experience. And as you wind through a maze of half-lies and carefully-constructed half-truths (like her claim that an African-American friend is her "dad"); it makes you wonder precisely how many of her other tales (such as those of her allegedly violent and racist parents) are exaggerated or outright fabricated.Despite her claims to be black inside; "In Full Color" exposes the cringiest type of white person -- one who thinks she can define and acquire the experiences of another ethnic group. My advice: go buy a copy of "Get Out" instead.71 of 84 people found the following review helpful. Sad and embarrassingBy AlyceI should say that I find all the attention on Dolezal deeply troubling; and her flimsy book brings nothing new or interesting to conversations on the complicated layers of American race. In fact; her self-serving position is deeply ahistorical (she seems to have no regard for the legal history of "race"); and for a woman with advanced degrees who claims expertise in social justice and race studies; etc.; she seems completely blinded by her own self-involvement. This is a sad book; not the least of which is her own lack of self-awareness. Self-awareness is different from self-obsession; and this is a self-obsessed book. I'm sorry her parents punished her; and I'm sorry she felt like an outlier growing up; but she is not alone. Many people have difficult childhoods. Perhaps one of the worst aspects of her approach in identifying As Black is her misguided affinity for her own misperceptions of victimization. Now she dares to equate her position as similar to being transgendered. This is further proof of how little she comprehends outside of her own self-focus. Whatever childhood traumas she feels she suffered (assuming you can believe what she reports in the book) and the strict religious upbringing she had; they lend nothing to her explanation of why she believes herself to be Black. Race is indeed a social construct; but it is also organized around ancestry and phenotype; and is shaped by materially lived experience. Dolezal is at best naive and at worst a huckster. She has continued to exploit a lie that has done more damage than she knows. And her view of Blackness is one of the weirdest and screwiest. Simply put Blackness in all its prismatic possibilities is not determined by a childhood preference for a brown crayon; or a spray tan; or a good hair stylist. It's best to avoid speculation about this woman's troubled psyche; except to point out the obvious---that she seems to have a tremendous stash of unresolved feelings about her childhood and upbringing. It's a very sad and disturbing book.